God created man. We
are God’s creation.
When God created Adam, they walked together and talked like
friends. Adam was constantly in the
presence of the Creator of everything!
Yet, he was not satisfied. Adam
longed for something different, something more.
God eventually gave Adam a woman. A like-partner, created from Adam’s own
body. Eve was literally created by God
for Adam yet their relationship, imperfect and flawed, led to their dismissal
from the Garden of Eden.
Before I knew my parents - before I even knew myself - God
knew me. My first relationship was with
God, my Creator. Ultimately, God comes
first above any relationship. My relationship
with God should be is the most
important relationship I have. I can
lose favor with man but God said in His word that He would never leave me nor
forsake me (Deuteronomy 31:6), He is always with me (Matthew 28:20) and nothing
can separate me from Him (Romans 8:38-39).
Why then is He not good enough for me? Why is my relationship with Him not
fulfilling? Why do I long to have man’s
love and approval more than I long for God?
God, our Creator, designed us with the ability to make
choices. We all know very early on that there
is a void in our lives. Some try to fill
the void with success and wealth, others try to fill the void with addictions
and perversions. Some of us try to fill
the void with relationships – a romantic partner, a parent, a child, a friend. We seek approval and love through things that
were made by our Creator instead of seeking a relationship with the only one
who can fill that void. He created us so
naturally He should know what we need and be capable of providing it.
As Christians, we already know all this – mentally. I feel kind of shameful to even admit that I
have known what God requires of me yet I chose not to do my part because…well…it
just didn’t make sense. I needed someone
I could physically feel, someone who I could talk to and hear them talk to
me. I wanted, like Adam, another human to walk with because walking with God just wasn’t cutting the mustard for me. It wasn’t until recently that the light bulb
came on for me. I put my earthly relationships above my relationship with God.
When my earthly relationships began to crumble, I felt myself falling
apart. I was so dependent upon people
that when they let me down, I felt that void grow even deeper and wider than it had ever
been before. God showed me my errors.
First, I was disobeying His commandments by putting other “gods”
before Him. Second, I believed with my
head and not my heart. My heart belonged
to the world. I knew God but I didn’t really know God. Also, I needed to
change if I expect to have the life God wants me to have. God said He is my provider – not man. God said He is my protector – not man. God said He is my joy – not man. God said He is my peace – not man.
And the journey continues…
I am telling you, this road has not been easy but I can finally see the
finish line. I will finish this race. I will finish strong! I have my battle scars but none of my wounds
have been fatal thanks to God. He gives
me strength to keep going and I thank Him for every step that He takes with me. May God strengthen you on your journey also as you grow and mature in Him.
